Friday, April 11, 2014

Confused sissy

A number of people have been encouraging me to write more in my blog. In the past year, I have had a lot of encouragement by some dominant men to indulge deeply into the sissy lifestyle. Some men want me to be their sissy slave. Others are looking more at a Daddy/sissy relationship. Either way I would be under their control and fully feminized, sissified, dominated, and dedicated to their desires. I must confess when I chat with a Dom about such things, I am totally enthralled and truly excited in the most erotic kind of way. As a submissive sissy, I find being ultra feminine, sexy, and the feelings of vulnerability and humiliation are so very intense. I love to please and find a deep desire to submit. Several different offers have been so very alluring.
In any of these situations I would be expected to be highly sissified at home wearing very short frilly sissy style dresses that do not cover my stocking tops or garters. I would be expected to wear a corset regularly, be in chastity all the time, and often plugged to keep my sissy ass ready for use. I can see myself accepting this role because I know that my sissy yearnings are so deep that I want this so very much. In addition I was told that periodically I was to be put into bondage and on occasion punished. Once again, I yearn for this type for treatment.

I have come to realize over time that I am a rather submissive sissy. As a male, I am such an effeminate pansy that no woman would want me for anything but a sissy maid. I am a failure as a man, but I am also proud of that fact too. I now know that I do not ever want to have sex with a woman again. It has been many years since I have, but I don’t want to have sex with a woman as a man. I want to have sex as a woman with a man, or better yet as a pantywaist sissy with a man. In the relationships I have had with men, I have always pleased the men but never received reciprocal pleasure. I like that. I like being used. I like being filled with cum and staying hot and horny to be ready to please a man again and again. My sexuality is totally linked to my subbie sissy mindset. But in addition, my fetishistic crossdressing is also an intense part of my sexual mindset. I love being dressed hyper girlie in the most over the top frilly attire possible.
So with this mindset why do I hesitate to indulge totally in the sissy lifestyle? It seems I have all this baggage of commitments to others which would need to be completely eliminated. It is such a hard decision and I agonize over it often. I so much want to delve into the sissy lifestyle but continue to hold back. At least you can see what a fairy I am by some of my recent pictures.


Anonymous said...

Dear Sissy Gina, as a sissy fairy pantywaist who has struggled like yourself, i have been coming out more and more. Nobody seems surprised and most are happy for me, especially since i am happier and so much more fun to be around. The pressure has lifted. It is not like anybody is surprised i am a sissy fairy pantywaist. i am sure everybody knows You are a wonderful sissy queer and those who care about You will be so happy to help You, and encourage You, let You be their girlfriend and play sissy dress up with you. Nobody will be able to be Your friend until they can feel they can really see the real you. i would let her, girlfriend. hugs, sissy michelle :)

cindypanties said...

Sweet sissy Gina I so admire your situations as deeply closeted sissy I adore reading about your exploits and adventures especially since we are so close. Please keep up the training and I will live vicariously through you. Oh to be at your house and find your silky dainties in the hamper makes me shiver.

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