Friday, April 23, 2010
Yes my sissy side is my fantasy in which I occasionally indulge. I don’t know if I could be a submissive sissy 24/7, but exploring that deep hidden dark side of my personality is intensely erotic. It is the means through which I see myself sexually. It is my sexual expression and no other aspect of my personality satisfies my sexual needs. Typically I like to be a conservative, classy woman. But the decadent sissy always comes back out, wanting to be ultra feminine, ultra sexy, and an exaggeratedly feminine girl. I want to be viewed sexually even if that means as an object of sexual pleasure.
This is a side of me that I have not adequately explored and which begs me to open the door to the dark unknown corridor leading me somewhere uncertain. Perhaps that is what some of us like about being sissies. It is the dark unknown side of our selves which is taboo, but begs to be discovered. I like the idea of being an intelligent educated person willing to give up control and be submissive. Perhaps this is part of what forced feminization is about. It is something we really want, except that someone else pushes us beyond the limits that we would have for ourselves. I know that if it had not been for several Mistresses pushing my limits at different times, I would not be where I am today. I just needed a little push at different times.
Hi again, this is sissy gina, a femmy little pantywaist sissy male. Like many of you, I progress my feminization in steps, but right now I am on a plateau. I have encouraged some of you to take steps to move your sissification forward. I am stuck in one spot and think I need to take some other steps too. I think a good next step would be to wear stockings and garters belts to work on a regular basis, under my male clothes. When not at work, I dress exclusively as a woman. When at work, I wear panties and womens socks and on occasion I wear stockings and garter belt, a camisole, corset, or waist cincher. I think I should be wearing stockings and garters on a regular basis.
Why focus on stockings and garters? Stockings and garter belts are sexy feminine items worn more by sissies than women, and a sissy can feel the tug of the stockings against the garters as they walk. This is what I want, to feel the tug of my stockings pulling on the garters as I walk down the corridors at work. When I sit to pee in a stall and I am wearing stockings and garter, I ask myself, “Why do I do this?” I admit to myself that I am a sissy but sometimes I feel so ridiculous doing this. Simply put, I think that wearing feminine items more often will reinforce sissy behavior.
Since I have to wear male clothing to work, I want to be constantly reminded that I am not a man, but an effeminate sissy. Wearing additional feminine lingerie at work will do that and help me be a better sissy.
We need to continually push our limits and I am hoping you will help me push mine and that you will also make a commitment to take a small mincing little sissy step to be more feminine.