Saturday, December 26, 2009
I found a site called Polyvore, where you can take select clothing and accessories from web sites and put them together into a montage. So I tried making a somewhat sissy style version with petticoats, high heels and lingerie. An interesting experiment in using women's clothing as art. Of course I prefer womens clothing as wearable art but this is nice too.
Friday, December 18, 2009
As one of the many little things I decided to do to be a better sissy, I bought a corset. I have an older one but this one is so nicely constricting. It wasn't cheap, $240, but it is tight lacing and has eight garters. I have been wearing it weekly to work. The corset serves as a constant reminder of my sissification as I work throughout the day. It is impossible not to notice the tug of my garters on my stockings as I walk. Notice that I am also wearing ruffled black panties. They are so cute too.
I went to purchase the corset after work so I was dressed as a male. Before I went into the store, I took off my socks and shoes and slipped on a pair of high heels. I also donned some lipstick and lots of jewelry. Beneath my male slacks I wore black panties, a garter belt and stockings. I walked around as a male in high heels ad selected the corset I wanted to try on. I tried two different sizes. When I found the one I thought would work I asked the young salesgirl if she could help me lace it up. She laced me up quite tightly and I asked her to keep making it as tight as possible. I told her I would take the corset and wear it home, and I did so after attaching the eight garters of the corset to my stockings.
I wish to remind you all how much I like being a pantywaist sissy male and wearing womens lingerie. It is such a turn-on for me and I love displaying myself publicly in lingerie. A corset gives such a feeling of constriction and submissiveness. It is hard to find any item of lingerie more erotic. This constricting garment is of course topped off by the tugging of the garters against the hose. It feels so erotic and sexy. I love being a sissy.
Monday, December 14, 2009
The first photo is of me in lingerie on the couch. The ties are nearby and I know they will be used on me. The next photo is of me on the bed in light bondage. Being in this position makes me feel vulnerable and submissive. I have not pursued bondage, but sometimes I wonder if it would cause me to be a better sissy. There are so many possible directions to go. I don't know whether I should be more of a prancing effeminate sissy in little girl dresses, a prancing french maid, a tied-up sissy doll, an effeminately dressed sissified male, or a more normal femmy girl. Should I have a master, a mistress, take inspirations and ideas from others, get together with other sissies, or wander as a sissy on my own following various paths and ideas?
Sunday, October 04, 2009
For the past 8 months, I have not posted much on my blog due to lots of long work hours and other commitments. Occasionally I get on a plateau about my sissy activities and now I need to recommit to upgrading my femme lifestyle. Although I live as a girl except at work, there are a lot of little things to do to continually push the envelope of femininity (something you should all do too). Some of the things I plan to do between now and the end of the year are below. They are pre-New Year’s resolutions.
Wear my hair longer. Consider getting a perm. In fact I just got a perm this Saturday. It looks great for me as a girl. I don’t know how it will look when I dress as a male for work, but we will see. Last time I had a perm, some of the women at work noticed and commented. In any case, I got the perm, I like it, and everyone will see it. I intend to continue doing a lot of little things to continually look more feminine, even as a male as work.
I hereby commit to getting my ears pierced over Christmas. My wife doesn’t approve of me doing this, but I am going to do it anyway. It is about time I had my ears pierced.
I need to be wearing stockings and a garter belt to work more often. It will remind me during the day that I am a sissy. This is something all us sissies need to do more.
I need to go back to DareWare (fetish clothing store) to check out femme fetish clothing while dressed as a slightly effeminate male. I would go after work in male work attire but wear stockings, have on 3” high heels, jewelry & lipstick. It will be obvious I am a sissy. I need to buy a new garter belt. I will try it on and wear it home with a pair of new stockings that I will also buy.
I need to buy a new tightly laced corset with garters. I should do this as an effeminately dressed male. Erotic Cabaret would be the best choice for this. When I buy a corset, I should wear stockings with a nice new garter belt and ruffled panties, all in black. I have tried on corsets in the past, and the salesgirls have always helped laced them up for me.
Since I dress as a girl at home all the time, I should dress more femmy as a girl. Specifically I should do more pinks. I have a cute outfit of pink capris and coordinating pink top that I just love. I should focus more on these types of outfits as a girl.
Fix up the spare room and make it very femme. I will use lacy curtains with flowers and get fashion pictures of women or pictures of high heels, accessories, etc. The room should be made over the top feminine. I don’t care who sees it, even my parents. This will be my study.
This is only a partial list of items, but are a good start for the rest of the year. I also need to upgrade my sissy attire and lingerie. That will come next. I am open to ideas for sissy attire and lingerie I should have or get more of.
The only other minor events that happened were that, one security person checking my boarding pass asked, “Are you Kevin Grey?” I told him yes and that was it. Another time I set off the metal detector. The male security agent told me to step aside and called out “I need a female pat-down please.” A women security guard came over and patted me down around my bust and waist. She noted the metal in my push-up bra and then let me go. I was certainly flattered and thrilled to get a female pat down.
As I reported in earlier blogs I also have a driver’s license with my hair slightly fluffed up and wearing make-up and jewelry and a blouse. This is just a femmy male ID.
In addition, I have a state ID card with me fully dressed as a girl with a long wig, make-up, jewelry, and totally femmed. All the documents have my real name as it would be illegal otherwise. I use this femme ID for domestic travel. It is totally legal and OK to do this in Texas. When I use it for domestic travel, even air travel, no one cares because the picture matches me and the name on my ID matches the ticket name. No one ever says anything about this and I often get called ma’am.
Saturday, May 09, 2009
I will continue to relate some of my experiences dating men, past and recent. Many men I dated did not know that I'm a t-girl and I had to be very careful to tease and please them without them finding out. It was very risky and quite thrilling.
A number of years ago, I dated a straight guy, J, who didn't know I'm a tgirl. I used to meet him at his townhouse and them we would take his car to go out. We went mostly to clubs. One winter evening I came to his back door wearing a white sweater coat which was mid thigh length. J could see me bundled up in my coat and in high heels and black hose. Of course I was all dolled up with wig make-up and nicely polished nails too. I was dressed in the outfit shown.
When he came to the door, I threw my coat open and revealed that I was wearing a very short black and white French maids dress with a cute apron. His expression was priceless and made me thrilled. I gently nudged him backwards and told him that tonight I was his maid and it was my job to serve him. As a maid, it was my job. He should just sit back and relax. Thank goodness he went along. I undressed him and sucked his cock. Afterwards, I changed into another outfit I brought and fixed my make-up. Then we went out to a club. J still wants to take me out but I had to stop because he was getting progressively closer to finding out about me.
On other occasions he had me out of my dress, kissing him in my lingerie, specifically a short black lacy slip. I felt so vulnerable standing there kissing him while wearing only lingerie, but it also thrilled me. I hated to stop dating him but I knew I must. It was getting progressively harder to hold him off and not let him find out about my little secret.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
One night at a piano bar, a guy convinced me to follow him home. Stupid me, I must have had too much to drink. What did I think he wanted? I didn't think. We went to his townhouse and he immediately started kissing me and dragging me up the stairs to this bedroom. We kissed and fondled on the way up. I had to be real careful where I let him touch me or he would have probably beaten the crap out of me for not being a real woman like he though I was. I loved feeling his hard cock pressed up against me. It made me feel so femme and submissive. I really caressed his cock with my hands and when he pressed it against me. Finally he started to undress me and I started making excuses that I had to leave. The situation was geting out of my control. His cock was so hard and he said, "You can't leave me like this". Wow, I realized how it is to get a man hot and excited, and how difficult it is to get a man to stop. I relented and grabbed him by the hand and took him to the bedroom and said something about taking care of him. I undid his pants and told him to lie back and preceeded to suck his cock until he came in my mouth. Thank goodnees he was satisfied with a blow job. I have found that most men are. Just as long as they get their rocks off, they are happy. For some reason I can't remember, this guy Bill had a lot of umbrellas. On the way out he offered me one. He said, "I'm not offering you an umbrella for a blow job, I just have so many, I thought you might like one." Now I remember him as umbrealla Bill. I haven't seen him since.
This was a really dangerous situation but I loved satisfying a man without getting any pleasure myself. It was a real thrill.
Monday, January 05, 2009
sissy tammi states, "i really don’t enjoy wearing women’s clothes. i find quite humiliating and embarrassing to dress as woman and unfortunately that is why Goddess Sandra requires it. It pleases Her to see me dressed in such a manner. i do not enjoy dressing as a woman it is very difficult and typically quite uncomfortable".
Please check out sissy tammi's blog (listed on right side of blog) and encourage her to indulge deeply and embrace her femininization. sissy tammi has served at several functions hosted by Dommes and there is so much more we should know about them. Goddess Sandra want us to post comments and suggestions, so please listen to this Esteemed Mistress and add your comments.