Friday, November 21, 2014

Blog post for sissy assignment 1 completion

I followed through and wore my layered lingerie 24/7 over the entire weekend, from Friday before work to Monday after work. It consisted of wearing panties, bra, tightly constricting corset, two garter belts holding up two pair of stockings, and high heels. I even had to wear all this to bed. There was other feminine outerwear over this, but the above was the minimum. A butt plug was also required often.
Trussed up so fully, it was somewhat difficult to initially get to sleep. My heart was beating quickly. As I lay in bed, i ran my hands up and down my body, I could feel how trussed up i was and it gave me a strange feeling, especially since I had never worn a corset and high heels to bed before.  It was hours before I could get to sleep since the sissy feelings were so strong. I resisted the temptation to cum in my panties and I finally fell asleep having some very strange dreams.
As the weekend continued i got more a more used to wearing the corset but could not bend at the waist to pick things up. i had bend at the knees all the time. On Sunday I wore a sleeveless dress to church. Of course i continued to wear the corset, stockings, and high heels. . This has not been easy at all. While i did get somewhat used to the discomfort of the corset, i was constantly reminded of the fact i was wearing one. The layering of the stockings was also a reminder of my unique situation. Wearing stockings and garters is very different than wearing pantyhose. At church i was constantly aware of how my dress was covering my stockings and garters. i needed to be careful not to let my stocking tops show. All this focused my attention. It seems such things could be a useful tool in keeping a sissy focused. What i have been wearing during the weekend was certainly not mainstream and i was reminded of that fact consistently throughout the weekend. It was awkward.

During the weekend, my mind remained a bit foggy and i had difficulty concentrating on tasks (i had to finish my taxes). Apparently this sissification is mentally very consuming, or at least distracting. Perhaps it is the intensity which is distracting. Perhaps this is distracting because it is out of the mainstream dressing and into fetishistic dressing. i must confess it does bring some eroticism to my daily life. It is a lot of work but i do like it. i can see that fetish and eroticism can be brought into a relationship subtly, behind the scenes as one enjoys the overt vanilla life.

There certainly was physical discomfort in my tightwear during my assignment. There is no doubt about it. It was difficult to take deep breaths, difficult to bend and maneuver effectively. It was not a situation which one could call comfortable. This has not been easy at all.

This assignment has provided a complex of different emotions from submissiveness and humiliation to confusion and eroticism. All in all, it has been a very positive experience. It could have been easy to take some shortcuts but i decided it was worth following through with all the requests. i now better realize understand the importance of a real man dominating a prissy effeminate sissy like me. In person i am certain the experience would have even been more intense, having me feeling even more submissive, humiliated, and erotically charged. As I mentioned earlier, i can also see how eroticism can lie beneath a vanilla lifestyle on a daily basis.

The tightwear weekend was most enlightening.. i totally love being an effeminate pansy,
it is really who i am. Being dressed in girlie attire of all sorts is the base of all my fetishes and kinks.

Friday, April 11, 2014

Two sissy assignments from Sir

Now Sir has given me two assignments which I must complete in the next few days

Sissy assignment 1: This weekend I am to wear stockings, garter belt, corset, and high heels 24/7 from the time I get home from work on Friday to the time I go back to work on Monday. That means I must even sleep in my corset, stockings, and high heels. Sir said that would help change my sissy thinking. I don’t know if it will be so, but I will obey Sir’s wishes and do as he directs. I will report on my feelings and the results of this assignment. It is Friday evening and I am attired in panties, bra, two garter belts holding up two pair of stockings, wearing a tight overbust corset, and high heels. Tomorrow I am going to the beauty salon to get my hair cut, colored, and styled as I do on a regular basis. But the difference is that tomorrow I will be all trussed up in layers of lingerie and constricting garments. Stay tuned for the assignment results.

Sissy assignment 2: When I went to Erotic Cabaret to buy stockings and corsets last Thursday, I went as a male but wearing stockings and high heels. Sir wanted me to do this with me as an obvious male but wearing only womens clothing and presenting a rather faggy male image. Due to a computer glitch I did not receive the email in time, so I have to redo the shopping assignment as a faggy male. I am also instructed to make three stops and linger to show off my faggy male status. It is required for me to wear a corset with two pairs of hose, girly jeans tucked into my high-heeled boots, a femme top, but no wig or bra so people would see me as a sissy male.  I should make at least 3 stops; a drug store, convenience store, and grocery store. Pictures are also expected. I have never done this before. I have gone out in select areas as a male in femme attire, but never so many mainstream places where I am to be seen, and never so overtly effeminate. This is scheduled for early next week. I am very apprehensive about this assignment. I am thinking a lot about where I am going to go and what I am going to say should anyone make a comment. Sir told me I should tell them that I am doing this to please my boyfriend. I will be an effeminate sissyboi in public and will be apprehensive, but I will comply with Sir's directions like a good sissyboi. I will report my results soon per Sir’s directions. I do hope Sir will be pleased.

Getting back on track

I must confess that I have not upheld all the commitments I have made on this blog. It is hard to do when you are doing it on your own. Even a sissy gets lazy. However, a man now is helping me get back on track. A dominant man is just what I need to help me overcome my sissy weakness, someone strong to keep a firm hand on a prissy effeminate sissified male like me.

So this past week it started. Sir started by making sure I wear stockings and a garter belt to work every day. In fact He decided that I should be wearing two pair of stockings to work with garters to hold them up, in addition to my wearing panties as I have continued to do. He also decided that I am to wear a corset or girdle to work EVERY DAY under my male attire. This all represents a big upgrade to my lingerie dressing.

In order to wear a corset on a regular basis, I desperately needed more corsets to wear. So on Thursday I went to Erotic Cabaret after work in male work attire but wearing stockings and 5” high heels. I asked for help with the corsets and the young woman there was quite helpful. I tried on 2 corsets over my clothes in the middle of the store while perched on my high heels but obviously a male. I bought both corsets. Now since I have new instructions to wear two pairs of stockings every day, I figured I needed to buy more stockings, so I bought 8 additional pair. Now maybe I am ready.    
The past several days this has strongly affected my mindset during the work day. Sometimes it was hard to concentrate because the tight corset and constant tug of the two garter belts on my taut stockings is quite noticeable. However, I must confess that I deeply love wearing womens attire and find this both disconcerting and exciting.